(3/3)“Even though I want to get better I’m also scared of getting out of this depression. It feels like it became a part of me. Getting better means I have to start living again and I have forgotten how to do that. I used to be a positive girl who loved life. I remember I could enjoy small things like the sound of the wind or seeing the first narcissus of spring. Last spring, I saw all of that but I didn’t feel happiness, I felt nothing. It’s going to take a long time before I’m better. I’m taking baby steps but I really hope that next spring I will feel a tiny bit of that happiness again.”

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